I feel compelled to scan. I do not have a direct story about my work. I just make it. The scanner makes me feel more connected to create art than my own camera. I feel creative freedom yet still challenged needing to style dried plants and co-exist with each other. Since I was very young, I watched my mother create her oasis in the backyard every single year. I kept asking myself, why go through the trouble of buying and planting flowers in the garden even though the cold will kill them all? I was never able to keep a plant alive and I still cannot do so. I always forget to give them life. I never understood the connection to flowers as my mother does. Ever since I was given my first dried flower, I got the same feeling my mother has when building her backyard escape. Being able to construct and style the flower my own way and to be able to re-use it to create something different made me love the life form. My ever-growing collection consists of exotic and everyday greenery. I have been given most of my flowers from fellow artist Whitney Lewis-Smith and I also dry my own. The process of watching the life cycle of flourishing and vibrant to shrivel and de-saturated fascinates me. The feeling of watching the brightest light of a flower decay sometimes feels empowering. Controlling a life to be used again and again to create art makes me feel in command of my work. The scanner gives me more depth than shooting with a camera. I feel as though I can reach into my print. Once I start scanning, I get into this zone of emotions. Concentrating on colour palettes and textures, leading to frustration on pieces that do not want to stay put. Excitement while seeing the scanner move to satisfaction when getting the image in my head right in front of me. Finally, repeat over and over again. I cannot find an explanation on why I do not have a solid story to my work. I create out of emotions and sensations before thinking of a narrative. I do not make up a story after the images have been produced, I feel as though it is not authentic. Nor do I want to make the viewer feel a specific way. Whoever is observing my body of work should create their own story.